It Isn't Hard

Just because a teacher assigns a lot of homework doesn’t make them “evil.” Just because a professor is a certain way doesn’t mean you have the right to judge them. Just because you can’t keep up with the work that you have to do all day long and all the hours you have to put into schoolwork doesn’t mean that the professor is unlikeable and that they are out to get you. Maybe they are, most likely they aren’t. I’m sorry you have to waste all day long doing homework left and right and it just never ends…but you did that to yourself. You took those classes. You chose them. You chose this major. You chose to go to college. Don’t tell me that school and homework and everything along with it takes up all your time and you have no time for anything else. What else do you need time for? You don’t go out. You don’t party. You don’t have friends to go see. You don’t need to take time out of your day to go visit your boyfriend. You don’t go places. You don’t do anything. So why is it a problem that school takes up everything? You sleep all day and you work all day. It’s not like you have anything else to do with your time so why is it so bad that you have to work all the time? Don’t go to school. Don’t become a Vet. What exactly would you be doing if you had extra time? Stumbling on Stumbleupon long after I started it, just because I did? Looking up things and favoriting them and commenting on them on DeviantArt? Going on Facebook and MSN Messenger? What? Going into the closet and talking to some jerk who doesn’t even care enough about you to visit you at your school and will let you visit him spontaneously every chance you get?

If you had something important to do, or somewhere important to be, then it would make some kind of sense. If you had friends to see or other people to talk to that you aren’t forced to be around because your class needs to have groups, then I might understand. You’re a loner. You’re condescending.  You’re judgmental. You think you’re smarter than everyone else, and you’re not. You’re in college. And you’re a college freshman. You aren’t smarter than very many of the people at this school, especially the ones that are going into the same field as you are. Do you think that at the rate you’re going right now you’re going to get into Vet School before they do? I don’t see you volunteering anywhere, trying to talk to anyone that can get you ahead, figuring out which classes are better to take, making sacrifices for summer school instead of going home and potentially wasting time. I bet if you didn’t go home or visit your good-for-nothing boyfriend so many times and wasted all that money to do so, you would have a bit of money to put towards a summer session and you wouldn’t have to say that you can’t afford it. You would be able to afford it if you stopped buying gifts for people that are expensive. You’re the one who said that something simple would please you so that could be the case for everyone else. And if they don’t appreciate even something simple, then they weren’t worth any gift to begin with, let alone a more expensive one. You’re a college student; you don’t have money to waste on trips over the weekend to visit your boyfriend, or buying him gifts, or buying things for your mom and dad, or whatnot. Be a kid. You may be a legal adult but that isn’t what makes you one in life. You have no experience and you have nothing to offer anyone and no one expects you to act like an adult yet. They want you to be mature and not act like a little kid, sure, but that isn’t all that hard now is it?

Stop criticizing the world. What did it do to you? You get out the same kind of energy from the universe that you put into it. Trust me, you’ve but a lot of negative energy into the universe and it’s just giving it all back to you. You need to learn to handle it and move on or be a better person. Stop worrying so much about other people and how they are and what they want and what they need. Worry about yourself for once and make something happen for you. Why should you worry about other people? You aren’t here because they told you to be here. Do you honestly think they would have a problem if you didn’t do anything with your life? Maybe your grandparents will care, maybe your parents will care…but those people you seem to care about and talk about behind their backs couldn’t are less about you. That’s life. Only your family cares, and yours doesn’t even care that much. You really think that they care that much if your grandma talks down to you and compares you to your cousin? Where she says how much better she is than you? I don’t know what you think but that isn’t love. That isn’t care. Maybe they have their moments, but trust me, those are nothing compared to what it should be. They should care about you, and take care of you, and show you love and affection every chance they get….even if it is very subtle.

I feel bad for you because it’s so rare. But don’t you dare criticize the people around you who are living their lives better than you. So many people are better than you. So many people are ahead of you. So many people don’t care about you or care about what happens to you. The saddest thing is, it doesn’t take that much to not care about you; it doesn’t take that much to dislike you; it doesn’t take that much to be better than you; it doesn’t take that much to be liked instead of you; it doesn’t take that much to get everything you wish you had because, frankly, it isn’t hard to be better and more confident and smarter and nicer and everything better than a lowly, condescending, weak, ugly person like you.